Today’s the day that my debut novel goes out into the world! It’s been an incredible process, working with my publisher to bring you the best book possible. This time last year, I had no idea that I’d be picked up by a publisher, I hadn’t even completely finished the book. It was just my story that I wanted to tell, so I set to typing and making the story a reality. I hadn’t even considered how to get the story into the hands of a publisher. Through a close friend, I managed to make the connection with Cinnabar Moth Publishing and they were excited to have this story. I was beyond excited to work with them, and they’ve been amazing allies to have in the journey that went into creating this book. Originally slated for November 2024, my book got moved up a few times and now releases TODAY.
I’m so excited for readers to have this book in their hands. This story has been a long time in the making, and my goal with it is for people to feel seen and have some representation of themselves in the characters. It’s a feeling I absolutely love when reading other queer lit, and it’s a feeling I hope to generate for people who read this book. I want people to know that they’re not alone, to have characters they can relate to. So it’s with this story that I hope to establish this reputation.
If this book helps just one person, it’ll be worth it. If you relate to any of the characters in any way, just know that you are beautiful, you are loved, and you are perfect as you are. There’s nothing wrong with you, no matter how much you’ve struggled or what you’ve been through. Life’s been a battle, but it’ll get better. I’m right here fighting with you. I hope you love these characters, and in doing so, love yourself. You are worthy and deserving of love.
You can follow me for updates on my book tour @NixBlackwood on twitter. Happy reading!
THE SECRETS THAT KILL US
At sixteen, Liz had already trudged through hell and back. Having Bounced from one foster home to another for most of her life, she finally finds herself in a stable home. But stability poses its own challenges after a life of unsteady footing, and Liz grapples to find a way to be still. Her past still plagues her in this new world. Everything feels wrong, she is at odds with her own body and mind, and struggling to survive.
Liz finds an unlikely friend in Alex, a girl who may not share Liz's troubled past but strives to understand, even though it means becoming a pariah at school. With Alex's help, Liz searches for the strength to confront her demons, and the two see each other through addictions, transitions, and the dangerous consequences of coping.
Unable to let herself trust and love, even in this new space with new support, Liz’s trauma begins to drag her under. Some secrets kill, and some truths fight to stay hidden. Unearthing them all will require Liz to trust others despite a lifetime of learning just how dangerous that is.